Not much to say. I have been sober for a while now but I still need the support of people that understand what I'm dealing with.
I guess I better revise this one. I had been sober for a while and thought I was "over" my problem. Well, I learned another big lesson... I still can't control drinking and probably never will.
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peace within myself
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This weekend I baked a huge loaf of sourdough and went looking at cheap houses with a realtor. The cheap ones ($200K and less) are in marginal neighborhoods and pretty trashy. Today I'm going boogie boarding.. Yesterday i got a haircut. Just little things, reading, etc.
You know, I'm not sure I've ever been to St. Louis. My mom was born in Stanberry, which is north of Kansas City.
I haven't done anything at all about my sobriety in the past two days. I did look at the Rational Recovery website, and spoke to a good friend who quit 20 years ago without doing any recovery groups or AA. I have several friends who've done that. I hate the idea of walking around 24 hours a day thinking I have this terrible disease that will never go away. Why can't we just be a little tougher and smarter and just piss on our addictions, rather than elevate them to a position of power over us.
I still haven't figured out why this discussion group is better than SMART recovery, or Craig's List for that matter, both of which have a lot more participants. Maybe there's something I'm not getting.
I've now finished 19 full days of sobriety and am glad as hell. Thanks for supporting me, Silvia. I have no cravings at all. The other day their was a teenage pothead in our HMO recovery group, and I was just thinking how lucky he will be if he can save himself so early in life, from a life of pointless addiction.
Hi sil,
How was your trip? i hope it went well, and you enjoyed your time! My last day of work is friday, and I just can't wait to start my new job. See you soon in chat...
Heather
No, I don't have insomnia. I used to pass out, too. Maybe you could unwind by doing some breathing exercises or exercising or read a boring book or drink warm milk before bed. make take more melatonin? Or some other vitamin. How's your diet? You've probably tried everything. I don't know. That's a bummer.
Thanks for the pictures. I haven't checked them out yet.
Maybe you could take some melatonin to help you sleep. Or reduce caffeine if you drink coffee.
Today is my 14th day of sobriety. I've been going to AA meetings and enjoying them, even though I'm not spiritually inclined. Also have been on Craigslist recovery forum, and the SMART Recovery forums. SMART has a lot more members. I wish they would just merge with Lifering, or something. There's not much difference, at least as far as the forums are concerned. It's kind of cumbersome to be on multiple forums. SMART has live chats, but I haven't done that yet. I may go up to Berkeley for the Lifering annual meeting.
Silva, thanks for your message tonight. Glad you had a great time in New Orleans. Sounds like you found plenty to do while sober there. I am still protecting my fragile sobriety (20 days today) so I don't go places where booze is flowing. It is getting easier though. I mean the cravings are less often and less intense. I'm going to my first Tango dance lesson tomorrow evening. I actually put an ad on Craig's List for a partner because I did not want to go alone. Turns out he's very nice and is one of those "normies" that can drink one glass of wine every few weeks. He doesn't understand addiction, but I did tell him about my alcoholism and he said he would not drink in front of me. I'm just staying busy with filing out employment applications and posting on the Lifering lists and attending some live chat meetings, going through my workbook slowly and still at the p/t job I have. Thanks for dropping by to see how I am. I'm glad to hear that your trip went well. It is amusing (if not disgusing) to listen to or watch people smashed now. I'm so glad that is behind me now. It was not that long ago when I was a falling down blubbering, run of the mill active drunk. I'm glad I became willing to stop the madness.
Trying to trouble shoot my comptuer also takes many hours here! Argh! Take care!
Linda