2 months doesn't seem like a lot. In some ways I've been counting the weeks more, but the usual thing is that my math has been off. (I've never been a mathematical person) I'm amazed at the changes that have happened in the past 8 weeks. Sleep is a bit easier. Getting up in the morning isn't a 90 minute ordeal. I don't have to sleep 13 hours to feel like I'm somewhat rested. I'm getting more stuff done everyday. My place isn't a mess from me being a drunken howler monkey. Life is a bit easier fo… Continue

Still at the whole sobriety thing, despite the craziness of Cookie/my dog getting sick.
Luckily all that craziness took me out of myself and I was focused on just being with her.
Handling the grief and my parents in the aftermath definitely made me want to drink again. So most of the past few weeks has just been white knuckling through some really bad cravings, but I've also learned to talk back to myself/the lizard brain. Over the course of that time, I found myself talking back in th… Continue

First of all, if I disappear for a few days, it's because i'm overdrawn in my checking account by about $100 and I don't have the money to pay my Internet bill. Screw it.
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I have an appointment with my doctor in late March for a regular checkup, but I think I should schedule a sooner appointment to tell my doctor about my alcohol dependence. I keep hearing about a fairly new medication that a) decreases cravings for alcohol and b) eliminates the euphoric feelings of alcohol. In other words, you don't feel buzzed or drunk when you drink, but you do experience all the negatives when it comes to alcohol abuse. I'm not saying whether or not that type of medication is… Continue

After last night's binge, I realized I need to see a therapist...one who is not sold on AA. She's an LCSW who has a holistic approach, exactly what I was looking for. When I talked to her on the phone today, she made it clear to me that she was not going to push AA on me. I feel that I really need to get at what is under my "need" to abuse alcohol.